Stepping Outside Into Comfort

I’m a very different person today, than I was 15 years ago. There are things about me now that I noticed have changed. And life it self has moved on.  In my new life I rarely go out in the evening unless it’s for an evening out with my husband or friends. But, I rarely go out alone.  My husband who had been gone for a few days is finally returning. But, the other night I had to pick him up at the airport.  His flight was late and it was a last minute change in his schedule. The plane landed at 2AM which meant I had to go get gas. Well I didn’t want to be out alone at 1 putting gas in the car. So, I instead I decided to get gas around 10:30. Which is about the sametime I found out that the plans had changed.

I have to admit I felt a little uneasy about being alone outside doing things at 11. But, I did. Then I remembered that I use to do a lot of things alone when I was younger. And being out at 11 and 12 in the evening alone wasn’t scary.  So, why was I scared earlier? I think because it has been so long that I’ve done anything alone. But, after a little time I felt the comfort.

Now I’m not saying it’s safe to be out at night alone. But, I think the more afraid you are of your surroundings the more unsafe it is. And the familiarity of the area makes you more aware when things are out of place.

Well it was an interesting small venture and I learned something interesting about me.